It’s a battle keeping up with these word prompts. A battle with time. And my mind.
I have so much to study. And I want to read more, too. And I have to think about what I’m going to do with my life. Also, I’ve set unrealistic goals for the weekend (again) which shall go unfulfilled (again) and that shall leave me annoyed. It’s not my fault I only get one day off.
The mind has been whispering. Doubts, fears.
The mind is uneasy. Everyday is another battle. To keep that balance between thinking and not think.
I want to exercise. Mind, soul and body. I want to get up earlier and be productive. But that is not possible.
I want a change of routine. I want this endless road to bend. I want something that would excite me, something that would inspire. My words have been kind to me. Never do they leave the mind. I have been neglecting them, I know. They have been starting to get quite difficult of late. They, too, want a change of expression. Rebellious, ungrateful. They never even realise how much I do for them. However, I in turn must not be ungrateful. They are a blessing, they could be taken away any time. I must cherish them.
I can’t wait for the fog. Glorious, vague vapours encompassing everything and anything, without discrimination.
It is another battle to see the same people every day, to disagree on the same things, to put up with the same ignorance and backwardness and still be nice. Apart from family, and that too only the most direct relations, how much sooner one tires of human company than of anything else. Cats, independent, detached creatures, infinitely cleverer than us (Though only metaphorically).
It is also a battle to be good. Evil tempts you. No matter how much one tries to purify one’s heart, it will always remain contaminated. No matter how much you try, you have been too infected. It is a battle to be kind. Especially those who don’t deserve it. But God knows you’re a monster inside, and if you start classifying and judging people, He could call you out on it.
It’s a battle to be.
How sweet would it be to not be?
Writing prompt: https://zoyakubra.wordpress.com/2017/09/23/october-writing-challenge/
P.S. Do you think my blog has become a little too dull and dark lately? Do you even enjoy? I’d love to know!
No, it’s not! This post makes me thinking a lot. Relax and Enjoy your life.
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Thank you! You’re too kind.
Yes ik we should all do that but well it’s so hard!
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you are very welcome
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🙂
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I love the message in this post! Nothing but the truth
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Thank you missnasra! And thank you for taking some time to read this.
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This literally blew me away. Really thought provoking.
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Thank you so much! And thanks for taking the time to read this. Really.
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Ahem…your blog is AMAZING. How can you call it dull? And dark? I love dark. It resembles the true reality of life.
I’ve been trying to be productuve as well, can relate to most if it (my to-do list ➡ a list of dreams never coming true)…such a struggle! But hey your words (and we of course) are always at your side!
Do as much as you can and don’t pressurise yourself and BREATHE.
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Awww THANK YOU for all this! Wow, you really made my day. I mean, the fear is always there (what if I turn tiresome?)
And hey. We’ve all been there with the productivity thing😂
And I am honoured to have you by my side.
Thank you❤
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Always always enjoy your posts whatever they are about! Even when they are dark (I would more say deep and meaningful) they are very touching and thought provoking ❤
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To receive this from you, such an amazing writer, it made my day! Thank you for everything!❤️
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Aww you’re very welcome and it’s true! You’re a very inspiring writer and motivational reader 🙂 ❤
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Thank you! 😭💕
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Will get back to this one.👍
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Listen there is literally ONE WORD I can comment with.
SAME HERE. I’m not even joking! This is so me right now.😭
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Omgggg! I feeeeel you!
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Except one thing. I have two days off. (Don’t be jelly and say MashaAllah) I know other friends who have one day off…but I also know people who have more than two. SIGH.
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Haha, lucky you. Wow, really? Well, sorry inky, but I AM jealous! Haha! All my siblings get two days off too! No, actually it’s okay. I’m quite used to that by now. But one misses that day! I mean, we need it. Oh well. Soon, IA!
Oh and….. MashAllah!
Sighhhhh.
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I know everyone deserves it. But tbh two days but no barakah I feel. 💔
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Aye, ik. Happens.
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Reading your posts, I have two things in mind. One is that I can relate. It’s something about the feeling. And the other is that I am in awe of your expression. For the things you are writing.
And if I talk only about this one, from wanting to be productive to needing to be grateful, the relation with words and the world… the subtle things. I can see myself there. I think what I mean to say is that I really like your space. ❤ I hope you always keep creating the best.
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I don’t even know how to respond to this. I guess I’m gladdd, that you relate. When I started blogging I followed your blog because it inspired me. It inspired me to express in a way that I hadn’t payed much attention to, before.
Thank you so much. As much as this phrase is cliched, I am thankful to you, for not only inspiring people but motivating them too. And this touched me — like REALLY touched me.❤️ Here’s to the many of us who create and go unnoticed, who give their best only to be neglected, but who are, eventually, the best gems❤️ I don’t know about myself, but you sure are one of the rarest gems❤️ stay blessed, always.🌸
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Let me tell you that I am struggling to find words as well. Honestly, it was just a really sweet thing to read, and I truly cherish the warmth of it. So, thank you!
I didn’t know my blog could inspire someone like that. In all these years blogging, this touched me, too. 🙂
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And thank you❤️🌸
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